our society (and most on the world) have this notion that suicide is wrong. very wrong. sinfull. condemning. that hell has a special place for those who refuze god's gift. that life is yours and you're free to do with it anyting you want by god forbid that you don't want it to go on!
it's called hypocrisy.
and here is a practical guide to suicide.
(ofcourse, i'm still scared of dieing, but i realize - at least at an abstract level - that it's natural. that it'll come; and that it's not my place to decide for others that they have to live. regardless of their choices).