some call it illusion

there is a "place" of clearness.

... a place where things are clear, well-defined, obvious and, for lack of a better word, weightless ...


i am still looking for the key of this place.


it's there, in my own mind; i know it's there; i get to it accidentally from time to time;

i usually get there when i'm willing to shed all thought; all ideas and all striving to reach ... well ... anything;


it's ironic: the strive for this clear state of being pushes it away from you;

it keeps your mind clouded.

that's why, it is a place that cannot be reached; trying to, in any way, keeps you away.

any kind of effort to reach it keeps you away;
any ... attempt;
any action;


then how does one reach it? one doesn't; i don't know.

a man went to the buddha one day and asked him what to do to attain moksha - to attain liberation;
the buddha said: there is nothing to do; just don't think of the monkeys.

and the man left.

two days later, as the buddha was preparing to leave, the man came running back with a haunted look in his eyes and he told the buddha: i no longer care for liberation. i don't want it; you can have it all for yourself!

just help me get rid of all these stupid monkeys!

to get there you have to let go of all effort ... without making any effort to let go of all effort; in short, it's the easiest path to madnes;

doest this make it the most difficult thing to do?
the most easy?


some call existence in this ... elusive place - liberation; some call it a state without friction; samaddhi; buddha nature; european mystics have called it carpe diem - live in the moment; i call it utmost relaxation; ultimate peace.

the opposite of this state, they call clouded mind (altough clouded is not what could be said since it's the normal state of mind);

different spiritual systems call it different things;

some call it maya and some call it illusion

this is where we are.
utnapistim