anticlimatic

i had a tensioned day today.

... had to fix my american express account problem;
... and took my bike to the workshop - the rear-wheel was still not working well;
... and had to decide on holiday accomodations;
... and see about an amazon.com order (there wasn't anything hard about that actually);

then i spoke to N ( hello N. :) ) and she brought up something that's been eating me for some time;

half an hour after speaking to her i (sort-of) got past being upset, then someone gave me a casual remark and my whole morale came crashing down for good.

strange how this happens on some days ...


as i was going home i was doing a real effort to keep my morale up;

and then i got a flat tire, so i got to walk home; looking back, it's the best thing that happened all day (and no, i wouldn't have said that as it happened :)).

you know, whenever you do a mechanical, phisical and repetitive activity (like - say - drag your MTB through half limassol) you can get some serious thinking done.

and i thought about what's been eating me ... really thought about it.

so, you know that feeling you get when you suddenly get free? that weight-lifting-off-your-chest thing? your arms and stomach and chest relax suddenly; actually, i think your whole body does; and then, you feel light; and feel that nothing is impossible, and everything is allright;

it's like a dose of ... reality? freshness?;

it's happiness in some way, i guess.

i got that today;

as i arrived home i was smiling for no reason ... and i felt so very releaved; i still am actually, and hope the feeling is here to last.


looking back it was the best day in a long time.


so long,
utnapistim