last night i had three dreams ...
usually i don't remember them, but last night ... they were so complete and full of details ... and i dreamt in colors ...
when i woke up, i just layed there and stared at the mattress for about 10 minutes, just trying to make some sense of them ... there were lots of symbols ... and stuff i can't make heads or tails of ...
well ... anyway ...
in the first dream i was in the mountains with some friends (at Colibita, where we went twice) ... and the air was fresh and the grass was very-very green ...
we were looking for places to lay down the tents ... and spoke with a forest ranger ...
he showed us "bear traps" he had layed, but they were obvious and somewhat clumsy ...
i don't remember who i was with ... they were just ... close friends ...
the second dream was in a whole different scene: we were in a city ... at night ... another group of friends ... and going out to party/have fun ...
i had just started a relationship with a new girl in the group (this feeling of a new relationship persisted from the first dream, and into the third) ...
she had brown hair, curly, was as tall as myself ... and had asian (but less pronounced) face features ...
i tried (really hard) recalling her name but it just doesn't come to me - maybe the name wasn't there ...
we were a bit unsure for the start of a relationship ... (funny how you know in dreams what other people feel) ... and i had this feeling of adventure (her too i think) ... of discovering new things ...
she had to move to another city and i knew i'd have to go and look for her later (maybe this is what i felt after the third dream, since that's what i was doing there).
the third dream was the strangest of them all ... it was definitely influenced by too much half life 2 ...
there was a dark atmosphere over the entire city ...
there were entire crouds of people (a continuous stream of people) in the streets, all street going in the same direction ...
there was an intersection ... and on one street the people were wearing strange costumes, in vivid colors (mostly yellow), and were unnaturally happy (i had the feeling the costumes were keeping them drugged somehow, forced into an artificial happiness) ...
it was an unnatural happiness ... somehow sick ... twisted ...
on the second street, the people were rained down - rain symbolizes here hardship coming down on them, misery - (funny, now that i think of it, i don't remember rain on the "happy" people) ... it was raining prety hard and it was cold ( ok, i woke up frozen from that dream so, guess why it was cold ;) ) ...
at one point, while at the intersection, the drugged people started singing a patriotic song, in russian ... (and then i remembered - information just came to me - that after some event/revolution/large scale ... something, everyone was forced to learn russian);
i didn't know the words, but i remember what i saw there: the drugged people were singing out of conviction ... out of their (unnatural) happiness ... the color-less ones were singing out of fright ... and i was trying not to be noticed: the song and words made no sense to me at all;
i was going on this street trying to reach an important, official building, where i had to find the girl in the prevoius dream (at least that's what connected in my mind when i woke up) ...
and there were three police men watching the croud ... i was the only one that felt ... normal there ... and was trying to blend in: to make sure the police didn't notice i didn't have a broken spirit ... that could have meant trouble ... or endless interrogations ... or beatings ...
so i was pretending ...
i was the only one going the other way (than the croud was going) [against them? opposite dirrection?] ...
there were no cars in the city, just the broken (and the unhappy) people ...
after i woke up, i had lots of background information still in my head: that's when i connected the three dreams; and when i decided that i was giong for the official building to meet her. and then i built an entire plan in my head, while starring at the mattress, regarding how to reach her without attracting attention ...
that's also when i decided that the city was resembling city 17 from hl2 (for the russian language ... and the oppression feeling, and the overwatch feeling i got from the police) ... and when i connected it to the whole communism thing ...
the city (in the last dream) represents a thinking system, an interpretation of reality and the way it is enforced on people (and me, trying to fit through it, without being noticed).
the russian language connects to communism ... and effects of communism on the current thought system in those enforcing their ... limits upon me - at home.
the bear is usually everything dual: dangerous but playfull ... it's not the first time i dream of bears ... but now it's bear traps ... i'll have to rumminate more on this.
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