no meditation

there is no meditation. it's all an ilusion. because there's nobody there to meditate.

you are told you are in the center of sound; and there is no center of sound ...

and you are told to be a witness; but there is no witness there ...

and you are told to not think, just be, and let it be; yet there is nobody to be; and nobody to let it be.


i used to think (there used to be this thought) that you are to be the center of the cyclone (masters said that); but this cyclone has no center; and if it has one, there is nobody to stand in the center of it;

and there is no sense of it all that you can make; and no purpose in life; if somebody tells you to make some sense of it all he's leading you astray.


and i used to think - as Lucian Blaga said - that as soon as you realize that life has no purpose, you're free to give it any purpose you want. and that this is great;

well ... there is no purpose; and yes, you are free to choose one; but it's a mere construction; and after you choose it and live it you will see this; that's why you then have to choose a new purpose to run after.


but "you" (the "you" inside you) are also a construct;

they say that if you look at this construct it dissapears ... like all ilusions; it's another damn ilusion!
because there is noone to look at this construct; to even try means to create a "looker"; which you will also have to look at; for which you create another looker;
and then we all wonder why a spiritual path is so long; IT'S BECAUSE "YOU" KEEP PROLONGING IT.


now there's noone doing the thinking; thoughts come and go; or they don't. and maybe i'll forget all of this (as it happened before) and then choose a new purpose, and a new meaning, and ... well that's the way it will be. because i'm allready forgetting :).



by the way, this is all wrong. and I DIDN'T WRITE IT!